Curves

I like this thinspiration because you can see how thin her arms are. And the thinness of her face. Mine is so chunky. And my arms have so much excess skin on them. I hate it, it makes me uncomfortable to be in public.

Christie took me to Curves today. It was nice. Very quiet and secluded. Not at all like the Y where at any second Dan could walk in and I'd have an instant panic attack. I wish so badly sometimes that he'd say something so that I could just sock him right in his stupid fucking face. Or something. Anyways. Christie has this keycard thing that she used on all of the machines, and after two circuts it said that she burned 600 calories. I don't think that's quite right, because when I go to the Y to do my workouts, I bust my ass and usually don't cap anything over 650, and I work out hard for an hour and a half. Whatever it takes to lose this weight. I have to stop eating at night, or start throwing up again, because I think that's where my extra weight is coming from.

I'm waiting for Tim to call me back. We're supposed to go to lunch today (salads and coffee, the perpetual cheap date), and we're going to just talk. I hope he can pick me up on the scooter, I love that thing. :)